Namaste

While the brain is still functional (and God only knows how long that will be in any given day here recently with this illness – hop, skip and a jump away from giving in to the antibiotics I so desperately try to avoid...), I have an issue that has been driving me mildly insane over the last few days of thought about it, and though I know you are almost ALL going to disagree with me, I have to release it into the aethers, nonetheless.

OK.  So it took me a long time to REALLY notice this, but once I did it became the prevalent theme around me.  It appears to me that hardly anyone else really DOES notice it, and when they do they just try to avoid the subject.  I find this utterly flabbergasting – and totally disturbing.  So I am going to tell you what I have seen and you can tell me if you can understand it or not.  Or, you can argue with me, as I suspect some will feel the desperate need to do.

Whereas I completely understand the ‘power of positive thinking’, I am not one whit less than thoroughly blown away by the idea that suddenly we are not ALLOWED any other emotion or expression.  While I fully comprehend that sitting around doing nothing but bitching about our lives will do nothing but drag us – and everyone around us – down, I am also of a mind that the outright repression of TRUE feelings is not ever what Spirit truly intended.

I have read a great deal of spiritual material over my lifetime.  Some of it fairly esoteric in nature.  When you read a large volume of any one subject, you begin to see patterns within it.  The pattern *I* have observed is that we are supposed to be AUTHENTIC, REAL, HONEST and TRUE.  In fact, I do not see a prevalent trend towards, “Don’t ever feel anything bad – and if you do, for God’s sake don’t let anyone KNOW about it!” until much more recently.  And then – it is an EXPLOSION of this foolishness.

God I hate when people take a perfectly good concept and turn it into practically the useless opposite of what it was meant to be in the first place.  And especially here in America, we do it ALL the freaking time.

Remember soy?  Soy came here as an ethnic food – from the Asian countries, mostly.  And everyone jumped on the soy train – tofu, soy drinks, soy candles, soy supplements, soy, soy, soy – because it was claimed that it helped promote our health in various ways.  Americans are so stupid.  “It makes me healthier.  I will eat a TON of it.”  And now, there are supposedly UNHEALTHY conditions that have been borne of consuming TOO MUCH. 

Idiots.

And it is just like that with everything.  Someone said (actually a LONG time ago) that positive thinking would change our lives for the better.  Now what do we have (mostly created on the North American continent)?  The TOTAL disallowance of ANY OTHER THOUGHT.  There are whole groups of people who will, at the very least, frown down sternly upon you if you DARE to entertain the slightest of negative thoughts.  And Heaven FORBID you allow yourself to actually SPEAK them.  Hell, in some circles, that is pretty much a punishable offense.  Often the punishment is being ostracized.  After all, that’s the spiritual thing to do, right?

What is the MATTER with people?  I really and truly hate this Pollyanna view of existence.  Just because you refuse to look at the filthy, starving, miserable child at the side of the road doesn’t mean you made something better for him.  You didn’t obliterate his existence (and make your world all fluffy bunnies and unicorns with rainbows coming out their butts) because you chose to IGNORE him.  And frankly, it makes me question your levels of Humanity and Compassion – both part of the BASIC tool set for even BEING here, if you mean to be ANY sort of Conscious being.

We are not here to THINK and WISH the ‘bad’ away.  We are here to understand the tools of this space and to use them intelligently to achieve what we mean to achieve.  AND, if we wish to actually participate within the environment in which we find ourselves, it would behoove us to freaking PAY ATTENTION TO IT.  What work are you DOING if all you are doing is floating around in LaLa Land?  Really, the work needs to be done HERE, in REALITY – where the MESS is.

To do anything else is to be in denial.  FATAL denial.

The general consensus amongst TOO many who claim to be walking the spiritual path is that the Ascension means that we are just going to wake up one day and everything is going to be perfectly hunk-dory, perfectly to our liking, and we will never have another unhappy thought or feeling for all of Eternity.  REALLY?  Sounds like the ((YAWN)) oh-so-terribly-boring concept of Heaven that most people seem to hold. 

GOD.  If I die and go to a place where there is nothing to DO, PLEASE let me DIE AGAIN.

You know, even throughout esoteric material that describes the other planes of existence, there is still work and striving (and strife!), disagreement and working through unhappiness.  There is even still EVIL (whatever the heck it is one can define THAT as) on other levels of existence.  There are still relationships that require effort to maintain, there are still responsibilities that need to be attended to (MORE, in fact!), and there are still – get ready for it, you might want to sit down – IMPERFECTIONS.

Seems to me even GOD has had His bad days (read your Bible).

This Pollyannistically happy view of how things should be is so, so sad, ironically.  Most of you may not be able to comprehend this, but if you were actually given everything you ever wanted and were then placed in an environment where there was no challenge, you would likely go absolutely mad within the space of a day.  Think about the most boring do-nothing job you ever had.  Go ahead, I’ll wait while you remember it.  HORRIFYING, wasn’t it?! 

But since most people cannot see beyond the ends of their noses, and all they want right now is to be happier, then their idea is that the perfect world would be one in which they were hysterically happy ALL the time and there was nothing that they needed to do (because apparently most of us are so damn lazy that we would like to never move again...)

Thing is, the Ascension is not about us becoming so masterful that we get to bypass learning and growing and go on to some state of Nirvana wherein all we do all day is OM and contemplate the depths of our navels.  If we are such high masters that could achieve such bliss, that would speak VERY badly for what the Creator considers to be a “master”.  Believe me – what constitutes a TRUE creational master bares not the remotest resemblance to anything we have here on Earth.  The greatest (and that is SO subjective) amongst us is STILL but a squalling infant by way of comparison. 

And yet ANY of us should have some idea that we have it ALL figured out and thus have some sort of a right to look down our noses at OTHERS?!  LOL!!  What a RIOT!!

I have had the opportunity to come in contact with several people over the years who have considered themselves ‘something other’ than the rest of Humanity, and they invariably see themselves as “better”.  I can state without a single hesitation that if they actually WERE this ‘something other’ that they perceive themselves to BE, there would BE none of this “I’m better than you” crap.  When you get to a certain level of understanding and masterful practice, you simply do not look at things that way anymore.  And that is a perfectly achievable state, right here on Earth.

Believe me, the aforementioned behavior of feeling superior is most definitely a HUMAN trait and behavior.

I am of a mind that most of us are likely, at the basis of who we really are, ‘something other’ than JUST an Earth Human.  Doesn’t make any single one of us better than any single other.

Coming back to where this started with “GOD!  DON’T HAVE A BAD THOUGHT OR FEELING!!” the thing is this:

We each have a full span of emotions for a REASON.  And we have broad spectrums of sensing the world in which we live for a REASON.  We have a mind with which to form better plans, and we have hands that are designed for service FOR A REASON.  We were not given this life to eat pablum, spew Pollyannisms, ignore reality and play the bliss game.  We CAME here to do the work – and the work most definitely includes a lot of negatives.  If you are not encountering any, you can be sure that you are not truly showing up to your actual place of cosmic employment.

The bad stuff is here for several reasons, all this fretting about the Illuminati and reptilians out to get us, aside.  (I don’t know about you, but MY Creator is FAR, FAR greater than any of THAT – and the incredible amount of attention and FEAR generated around these things only serves to FEED them – so maybe you should think about that next time you think it’s important to spew foolishness about who’s out to get us, about all the boogey men in your world.)  For one thing, if there was never anything through which we had to strive, what would we learn?  If there were not choices to be considered, values to be weighed, possibilities to envision and hope to be planted for the future, what would be THE POINT?   

Consciousness only ever expands when it is given something different to work with.  I can guarantee that if you are spinning gleefully in your gilded cage of bliss, oh trapped songbird, you are not learning OR growing.  You may have some mistaken thought that you are, because you might experience some little sliver of DIFFERENT bliss than you had yesterday, but the expansion is simply not there.  You can swim for a lifetime in the Ocean, and all you will ever encounter is - the Ocean.

The work requires us to acknowledge and shift the things WITHIN us that seem to be out of phase with a better plan.  Yes, that is right – what is WITHIN us.  So many people out in the world doing things to save someone else, when they have not spent more than a few moments in time considering how to save themselves.  Many honestly believe that they can just throw out the ugliness in their lives and in the world and that it won’t come back knocking on their door someday. IT SHALL!!  And you WILL be forced to DO something with it!

What a shame.  So much being discarded in the name of being blissfully happy all the time.  And meanwhile, nothing in the world shifts.  Nothing in the world gets better.  But they have no idea, because they are only looking at the pretty golden bars of their bliss cage.  Go ahead, songbird.  Sing a new song.  Oh you can’t because you have no new experience with which to create one?  Aw.  Maybe you should escape the cage, then.

As we feel the negatives, as we explore their meaning, as we integrate healing and understanding, as we allow the expression of them (this is called RELEASE – and is IMPERATIVE to healing... I will tell you right now that if you think you healed something without truly releasing it – which often comes in a truly ugly form – you are fooling yourself in the worst way), we are healing the negatives of generations, and we are healing our world.  To do anything less is to live in the ILLUSION that you are doing some true good – for yourself or anyone else.  Sure, you can have a positive effect in the moment with your little dream of perfection, but in the end it’s just like the parent that thought their harsh discipline worked for their child because the fear made them stop what they were doing in the moment.  In reality, they have only postponed the inevitable.  Whatever caused the child to misbehave will resurface.  And likewise, at some point the Pollyanna’s student will wake up to reality and it will be like nothing was ever taught to begin with.  Because nothing WAS.

Sad.  It causes everyone who travels this path to do it over and over and over again because it is not the Wholistic answer.  The Wholistic answer holds ALL elements of the equation – not just the ones you LIKE.  If life truly were about only encountering the things we LIKE, again – it would prove to be a LOT less interesting than we imagine.  It is the CONTRAST between things that makes it so very wonderful.  It is through knowing the ugly that we can even begin to perceive the beauty.

So next time you may be thinking of denying someone else – or yourself, for that matter – the negative thoughts and feelings and expressions of life, remember that you are demanding of them that they only live HALF their experience, and that only so that YOU can be PLEASED.  How incredibly obnoxiously selfish and how completely unenlightened.  Remember that we are not just here on a joyride.  There is WORK to be done.  And it can’t be DONE from LaLa Land.  It really, truly has to be done right here, down in the trenches of reality.  We really DO have to deal with ALL of it.  And to think otherwise is just to be caught in a fantasy from which you WILL have an eventual rude awakening.