Namaste

 

(This article got lost and is just now being completed.  The date of the reading was August 9, 2011.  Reading over it now, I see places where it needs to be further developed.  If you have enjoyed reading, check back later for revisions!)

 

Ooniemme – Gratitude

Nathaniel – Fire Gift of God

Metatron – Thought

 

 

 

My time with Tiana was simply glorious!  I had, as I shared with her, expected a tame little card reading that might deliver some insight to my ongoing processes, but WOW!  I was in for quite the surprise as to what an “Angel Reading” really IS!  And I am SO grateful that Tiana was able to reschedule our meeting from my inadvertently missed one from before!

 

She pulled three cards from the Angel Blessings deck for me (which I happily own!):

 

Ooniemme ~ Gratitude.

 

Nathaniel ~ Fire. 

 

Metatron ~ Thought.

 

Those who know me personally could only marvel at how APPROPRIATE each and every one of these cards are for my Path.

 

I will expound upon that in a moment.  First, recording what I recall.

 

After the first cards were pulled, I sort of slipped on the time scale thing, and I am not entirely sure what came when after that.  I believe before we went into meditation she also pulled a card from a Love & Light deck with which I am not familiar, from which she again pulled Metatron. 

 

In my sparse notes (at this point, I was more ‘out’ than ‘in’, in some respects, so I was not keeping good notes beyond this... or, really, any at all – I was a little too busy having this amazing experience...), there are the notations of Silver, a moon surrounded by 9 moons, 22:22, Ophiniel (and there may have been one or two other names that escape me now), and Violet Light.

 

After (or before?) this, Tiana asked me if I meditated, and if I did, did I go somewhere, did I have a place.  I told her yes, and I have two places, actually.  I think this might be a little unusual, perhaps?  I have an inside place and an outside place.  Both pretty intricate.  ((smile))

 

Opted to be guided down a forest pathway, out the other side – where I emerged into an endless field.  It was all light green grass, like brand new Spring.  I could smell it.  It was waving in a soft breeze.  It looked like an apple green sea.  I could feel the breeze.  And the sun was warm and bright.  There was nothing else as far as the eye could see.  Tiana asked what I could see to my left and right – I told her edge of forest.  She led me further out into the field. 

 

Here we paused and ran energy – white light, up from the ground, up my body by degrees, until it was fountaining out my crown chakra.  I could feel this as a physical sensation.  It was like electricity running through my arms, legs, torso, fingers, toes – like someone had plugged me in (THANK YOU TIANA!) and the juice was really flowing.  She asked me to envision a bright shaft of light coming down into my meadow.  Ended up it was HUGE.  It was a bit distant – the field itself had great distance.  She asked me to walk to and then into this shaft of light.

All along the way, she asked how things felt – the different Angels (I will get back to that in a moment), and the sensations of the experiences.  Here, I felt safe and warm.  She asked me to allow it to fill me and en-lighten me, so that I could move up INTO it.  This occurred slowly for me, a sort of floating, instead of any sort of flying thing.  I felt a sort of ‘tractor beam’ sensation, like something was PULLING me up.  I was looking up into the stream of light, and trying to touch the edge of it as I passed by.

 

At a certain point, she had me pause and tell her what I saw.  She had asked me to distinguish between whether I was on Earth or perhaps in Space.  I told her neither – it was more a light grey, like twilight, but there were no stars.  It was completely featureless, just this light grey and then nothing.  I lingered there for a moment, and then Tiana said that she felt something coming for me form within this Void space.  She asked what I saw, and at first I saw nothing more than the formless grey void.  Then, off in the distance, I saw a faint ball of light that was swirling around all blue and green and white.  It seemed small – but as I told Tiana, it could just as well have been far away.

 

... forgotten along the way.... we did some breathing to access a deeper state for me, which I found magnificently beneficial.  All of a sudden the BREATHNG thing makes a lot more sense to me.  Intuitively, it felt CORRECT, even though I have no practical understanding of it – not having practiced a breathing technique of any sort.  NO trained metaphysician am I!!  But the breathing we did to deepen the state, and the later breathing to CLEAR was just unbelievable, and has opened a whole new avenue to me that I had considered fairly unimportant in the past.

 

My New Thing for the Day – amongst so many others.

 

It seemed at some points like energy was having a tough time flowing – which, within me, that is not necessarily unusual.  I walk a pretty intense and difficult path, often enough, and Spirit only knows how that can possibly block me or affect the Flow.  Tiana worked with me masterfully and very soothingly, to open those necessary channels.  At one point she commended me on my maturity (of practice, I suppose?  Spiritual understanding?)  I told her I was none too sure of myself, sometimes, but I sure hoped that over the decades I had made SOME progress – perhaps almost being ready for first grade, maybe.  It made me feel good about my progress, while at the same time reminding me to remain humble in my growth.

 

As I floated within my shaft of light, Tiana asked me to render it an hourglass, to move ever higher into it.  Being so out of Time and Space, I am not sure if it was at this point or a little later that she asked if I knew of the Merkaba, and I told her that I did, and she asked me to be inside.  Easy enough.  Then we brought my Blue-Green-White Light closer, and it seemed to ADHERE to the Merkaba.  I could still see it flowing and churning, but it was now on the planes of my Merkaba.  And I felt ENFOLDED.  Like a protective sheen on everything related to me.  Suddenly Divinely Impervious.  But it was getting hard to vocalize it all.  As it was, the breathing had required numbered and metered breaths just a bit ago – and I am still not sure I did all 5 sets of 8 patterns.  I lost time just before that, and numbers got really hard to think about.

 

So I was inside my Merkaba, and she asked me to continue the rising through the hourglass shaped shaft of light into the higher realms.  That took a little bit of time (I do not know why they are slow processes for me – EVERYTHING is.  Much to MANY people’s irritation, sometimes!).  I did make the journey, finally, and sort of POPPED into this Other Space.  She asked what I was seeing, and I was still processing what I was seeing, so it was sort of weird to describe.

 

I had entered a deeply BLACK space, like Space without stars.  And blacker than anything I had ever seen before.  And all around – as far as I could see – were these... BEINGS, I suppose.  They were all sitting in ranks, or lines, shoulder to shoulder – were I able to discern shoulders.  I could not - there were no real body shapes.  But I had the IMPRESSION they were all separate beings.  There were endless lines of them – ranked, like an army, in a sense.  They were all glowing, flashing a brilliant red-gold.  Like the heart of fire.  Blinding, in the blackness.  They were all sitting the same – leaning a little forward, wings straight out their backs, pointing up... I got the sense of them being AT ATTENTION ~ READY.

 

Tiana asked me about their wings and I described them – after telling her (through tears) that I believed I was actually SEEING what others had told me they had seen around me.  And it was OVERWHELMING.  Thousands of them... endlessly ranked and awaiting MY greater benefit.  I was so humbled in that moment, I just wanted to fall down and cry my heart out.  But I also wanted to be VERY present for the experience and the reading with Tiana.  So, tears flowing freely, I straddled the connection to the phone and my connection to this very OTHER experience, different than any other I have had in meditation.

 

She asked if I would like to be enfolded by their wings, and I said YES.  OF COURSE!  If I have that opportunity here and now, why on Earth (or elsewhere?) would I turn that down?!  ((smile))

 

Even though these beings all seemed distant, strewn across this black space in all directions, one came forward and wrapped its wings around me.  I not only felt feather-softness, I felt steel strength.  And it was simultaneously the embrace of a parent, a lover, my best friend and myself.  I was held like that – TIGHT – for several moments.  I had a sensation of a head next to mine, and if I’d had to guess, I might have guessed he was crying as hard as I was at that point.  Tiana did nothing to change the progress of the image and sensation, but then it seemed like they were all taking turns, one after another – hugging me like it was a grand homecoming.  And that is exactly how it felt.

 

We bathed in that for several moments, and then when she asked me what was happening now – because I had rather gotten lost in the process of all this LOVE! – I realized they had formed a sort of tight circle around me.  If I were to say what it seemed like to me, it seemed as though I were encased in a golden circle.  All radiant – almost painful to the sight, but inner sight can manage it.  And they were ALL ONE UNIT OF LOVE AND PEACE.  In my attention to them, they no longer seemed separate.  ONE BEING.  And, as I told Tiana, I had a sense that I had a place – a place that was reserved for me, for which they were glad I had come to fill, finally.

It was a blessing of HIGH MAGNITUDE.  A big surprise for me – NOT that it was a blessing, but that it was so INTENSE and ACTUAL for me.  So right-at-hand.  I had been preparing, on one level or another, a good portion of the day (besides the mundane things that distract), and I felt that had perhaps laid a conduit through which this all became possible.  But without Tiana facilitating, I do not believe it could have been so powerful, nor likely so successful.

 

I was frankly surprised to feel I was in that Void space, and yet here were my Guardians, my Guides, my Army – as now several have described to me.  I have not the tiniest sliver of doubt about them, in any dark corner of my mind.  Because now we have MET.  And I came ‘home’ with pieces of each of their hearts.  So it so very sublimely seems.  Suddenly, my Army is VERY actual.  Not just a metaphor – but a shining band of warriors standing at my back.

 

So, if someone offers you an Angel Reading – TAKE IT.  Believe me.  It is far more than its humble description would allow us to believe.  Not just a bunch of cards, but rather a doorway to energy that unites with our Hearts to bring us home to ourselves.  Thank you, Tiana, for such a wonderful experience!!  I am deeply grateful!

 

 

Now more than a month after this reading, I know why I felt like the narrative was not finished, and why I did not offer it to anyone to read.

 

It was but the next weekend, I think, - or perhaps two – when I was attending another class that I have been involved with for more than a year (nearly two), that I had the closing experience to this angel reading and its attendant effects.

 

The class is with a small group of people that I have grown to love and trust over the past nearly two years.  We are very much like family, in many respects.  The class was Earth Cycles, and we just happened to be exploring being able to see the aura.  We had gathered in the meditation room of our teacher, Georgia Vlahos, and we were using a blank lavender wall to seat one person against while the others tried to perceive the aura – or anything else that might be going on around them.

 

In more than one case, there was more than just their aura going on.  We saw shapes of beings and unusual effects in places of their aura where it looked like some sort of energy was coming in or going out, several different effects that we discussed.  When it came to be my turn, everyone sat scrutinizing for a few moments (and that IS a weird sensation! To just have people stare and study even the space AROUND you!! LOL!), and then one person said they thought they saw an angel.  And then someone else saw it, too – and maybe even more than one.

 

This didn’t have to mean anything to me, but their seeing this, the reading with Tiana, and an even more distant event of another friend seeing a vision during a Reiki treatment (on me) of an ARMY of angels spread as far as the eye could see – all there for me...well after a while you start to see how coincidence merges into meaningfulness, and I was sitting there a little overcome by the fact that others could see them around me. 

 

I feel very touched by angels here lately.  It was not that many years ago that I sort of looked a little askance at people who talked a little too much about angels. And now here I am, commanding my own army.  And knowing it constantly.  I feel them around me all the time.  I hear their whispers of encouragement – and slight reminders of ‘that’s not what you MEAN to be doing!’  Often enough, I feel enfolded in their embrace, wings protecting against anything that could come to harm from without.  Angels are no longer a pretty metaphor for something pleasant and powerful in my life, they are now constant companions and coworkers, friends and lovers of my soul, assisting me and applauding me, every single step along my path.

 

And I have nothing but Gratitude. 

 

That reminds me!  The three Angel Blessings Cards Tiana pulled?

 

Ooniemme ~ Gratitude.

 

Gratitude has become on of my strongest and broadest platforms in life.  The more for which I remain thankful, the easier the flow of abundance to me becomes.  It is a High Practice in my life.  Remember that abundance does not in all cases mean riches.  Abundance of Grace and Peace in one's life is a treasure immeasurable.

 

Nathaniel ~ Fire. 

 

I feel I am FINALLY coming into my own FIRE.  I have always felt Fire within me, and I feel that my work will eventually be a brilliant Flame for others to follow.  In some respects, it already is in a small way.  Another thing is that my Chinese Astrological aspect is the Dragon – which I also personally associate with Fire.  There is also a great sensation lately of being put THROUGH the Fire.  All highly appropriate.

 

Metatron ~ Thought.

 

Thought.  I am a Great Thinker.  A thinking machine.  I spend a good deal of my life in Thought.  I then express the findings of said thoughts through endless writing – some of which makes it to the public forum, some of which does not.  But it is all born on the waves of Deep Thought.  Whereas Gratitude has become a High Practice, Thought has always been one of my High Functions.  I came in with it.

 

Amazing, I think, how these cards presented themselves. J

 

 

Thank you Tiana and the Gateway University Angel Ministry Program, Kimberley Marooney Angelologist, and Judith Larkin Reno, precious Mentor Extraordinaire, for the creation of this school, this program, and the potential for this moment for me.  I am so very Blessed.

 

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